There is so much I want to say to you my love.  I want to start at the beginning, because that will help you understand why I love you so much. When I was younger I would imagine what it would be like to be with someone who truly loves me. I would imagine how it would feel to walk into my home after a long day of work and be greeted with a kiss and cuddle by the one I love. I would see couples and although they were together I knew I wanted a connection that reached higher levels of intimacy and understanding. I didn’t want an average relationship, I wanted to find someone who would take me to places of pure happiness and fulfillment and I wasn’t going to settle for anything less. There were days when I thought I would never find this and then days when I knew I would.

Thinking back of how easy it would’ve been to have never met you makes me realise that life is full of constant decisions that can take you on different paths and I’m so thankful that I chose this path that lead me to you. I had considered Toronto initially but decided I didn’t want to move to another big City. However, I did some research and realised Toronto would be a great place to finish off my Canadian adventures. It was close to Niagara Falls, Montreal and Quebec and I had been told by a trusted source that it was an amazing City.

I decided to go for it and I was lucky enough to find an amazing family that welcomed me into their home with open arms. We knew about each other through a mutual friend who wanted us to meet previously while I was living in Calgary. I look back and wonder what would’ve happened if we did. But I suppose that was a path that I chose not to take at the time, possibly for a good reason. Within a couple of days of arriving in Toronto I messaged you to meet up for drinks. My intention was to make a new friend in a new city that I knew nothing about. However, it wasn’t discussed whether this was a date or not and I think deep down we both knew it could be.  We had only exchanged a few messages over the past few months but I was excited to meet you and realised I really knew nothing about you.

This brings us to the 20^th of September 2019. We agreed on a bar called Good Fortune and of course I was running late. I texted and you said you didn’t mind because you’d be able to get a drink in. I finally arrived and you stood up and gave me a hug to greet me. Your beautiful smile was the first thing I noticed and it’s one of those smiles that shows that you’re a genuine person. The conversation that night was easy, interesting, fun and so effortless. From day one of meeting you to every day after that, I was surprised how comfortable I was around you from the very beginning.  I didn’t want the night to end because I was having so much fun but after realising we had been there for hours we finally decided we should call it a night.

After the night we met it was very clear to me that I wanted to meet up again. A couple weeks went by and we were regularly messaging and going on adventures around the City just enjoying each other’s company. You were my beautiful tour guide that I really enjoyed spending time with.

One day we agreed to meet up and catch a ferry to the Islands. There was something different about this time for the both of us and I could feel it. As always the conversation was easy and so much fun but we started to be more flirty. I remember innocently teasing you about things and lightly touching you on your arm. I wanted you to reach out and hold my hand as we walked around. As I sit here I’m struggling to find the words to describe how it really felt. This is the best I can come up with…you made me feel how music makes me feel. You know how you listen to a song and it just takes you places. Say you’re vibing to a song in the car with the windows down driving along the highway. Well that euphoric feeling is how you made me feel and continue to.

We then caught the Ferry and walked back into the City. I didn’t want to say goodbye yet but I got nervous to ask you if you wanted to still hang out. I was hoping you would ask me to get a drink and I was so happy when you did.  We went to a fancy restaurant close by and I learned that you wanted to get to know the real me. Not just touch the surface. You stated something about me that really surprised me because it was spot on. I felt understood by you and that in my opinion is one of strongest forms of intimacy. There is still so much I want to say.  From me to you, my love.

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